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October 26, 2007

Do you know who I am?

Allow me to introduce myself…

My name is Sebastian, Sebastian Alzmek, and I will be that new song that plays in your heart. Those crazy, sophisticated and beautiful melodies that will hypnotize you the instant your eyes meet the mirror into my soul.  At least the place my soul used to occupy.

I will meet you and smile.  The reflection you see in my dazzling grin will make you feel extraordinary. I will make you feel higher than the sky. You will be so elevated that you will swear you could fly.  I will be your every fantasy. I will be the figment of your imagination.  A manifestation of your dreams and desires, everything you ever wanted, and more.

I am you. I am everything you ever wanted.  Everything you desire.

One day we will cross paths on the street, in a train, at a red light. You my friend are one of the fortunate ones. You will have an opportunity to be mesmerized by my aura and I might even wink at you, provoking your mind.  I will make you want to reach across the room and scream my name, a name you have yet to hear.  A name you will want to know.

For those less fortunate souls, we will see each other in a nightclub, a bar or on the technological superhighways of the internet, my proverbial street corner.  When we cross paths you will have the opportunity to touch me, feel me and inhale the essence of Sebastian.  The scent will usurp every fantasy in your mind.  It will be Love at first sight.  At least it will be for you. Oh, don’t get me wrong, I will love you too.  At least I will for that hour or two before I take away your self-worth.  The instant before I steal the sparkle in your eyes.

When I take your breath way, literally…

I will crush whatever self-respect you have left for yourself when you realize that everything I told you was as true as the smile that lured you in.  Everything was a lie. A fairy tale you thought would come true the instant you saw my castle.  My European magic carpet you wanted to a maneuver through time.  The imaginary moment in time that reflected on a shinny Roadster that took you for a ride.

I will answer all your questions as I tell you nothing.

I will touch you without feeling a single thing.

You are nothing.

Meeting me will change your fortune, or in this case, your misfortune.  You will never be the same person.  In fact, you will no longer be a person.  You will be defined by a condition.  A disease that will mark you for the rest of your life as a second class citizen, dirt, scum and mud will be on your new found level of social acceptance.  That is if you are lucky.

If you’re one of the unfortunate souls walking this earth with out a clue, and let me tell you, there are many of you, you will discover your new condition when it is too late. You will discover your fate when you’re half-dead, riddled with deterioration and at deaths door.  You will have enough time to plan your funeral and pick out your headstone as you decide who will carry your body through church.

You might even have enough time to repent for your sins and beg God for forgiveness.

However, you do have options. One of them, the most obvious, is to live like I do.  Like a whisper in the middle of the night.  I know I am one of the fortunate ones who walk this earth undetectable.  I am untouchable, unmarked, unscathed.  This in turn makes me very dangerous, a hazard to your health. You see, disclosure is not an option for me. I will take as many of you with me that I possibly can. 

I know I am not going to the pearly gates up above. My halo has long since been tarnished as the last of my wings feathers fall to the ground. No matter what I do in my remaining years, my pact with “Red” will expire soon and I have to take as many of you with me as I can. Like the saying goes, when thrown lemons… suck it and don’t go out without a fight.

I and death have a very odd relationship and I honestly believe that after 17 years death fears me.  I am no longer afraid. The moment, the instant, I became valiant I freed myself of this stigma that plagues so many.  The day I accepted that death is my reality, I embraced it.  I caressed it.  I loved it.

Death is beautiful.  Death is becoming. Death is unavoidable.

And so am I…   

I will catalog the life events which make me infallible.  The moments in time that makes me memorable. I will illustrate that even in 2007 AIDS is still alive and how so many of you are starved for affection, defection and love.  That you will believe anything said to you in order to prevail the ends that justify your foolish means. 

Will the infinite pursuit of love make your life insignificant, or is your life simply and miraculously… Priceless?

October 24, 2007

ALZMEK: The Fictional Memoir of a Tainted Life

After a Quarter of a Century the face of AIDS has transformed from Death to Drop-Dead Gorgeous! 


RM Guzman’s new book “ALZMEK: The Fictional Memoir of a Tainted Life,” will make you question your mortality, ethics and most importantly, your perception.
It is San Francisco, Los Angeles and New York, circa 2004-2010. Somewhere in that time the lines between HIV Negative and positive has blurred and now they blend in. The new face of AIDS is no longer bleak. The new vision is both alluring and amazing. 
ALZMEK” is the petrifying memoir of Sebastian Alzmek, the impeccable and ultra-fabulous grim reaper who is handsome, successful and HIV Positive.  He manages to deceive everyone in his life as he transforms into a Silent Killer, armed with his poisonous veins. 

An envious smile, a perfect physique, a Multi-Million dollar estate and even more lucrative P.R. Firm made him into one of the countries most wanted men.  He was born with the rare “X” factor, the power of persuasion.
ALZMEK
A scared childhood, an adolescent deception and death made him realize that the world will never change and soon realized that disclosure was not an option. Revealing his affliction made him into a dirty and unwanted second-class citizen. He quickly learned that vengeance was better than sex and he was soon on a one man campaign to remind the world that AIDS is still alive.
Sebastian’s philosophy will make you question everything you ever believed to be real about life, death, AIDS and your perception. It will trigger anyone to think twice about who they are having sexual relations with. The victims in this perplexing story are no longer the people living with HIV/AIDS, but rather the innocent, unsuspecting public just like you.

No one can stop him from infecting dozens, even hundreds of men, women and even children. The laws are lenient and unprecedented making his wrath of destruction as persecuted as a parking violation; after all, he is the “victim.”  Even the people he infects cannot control his madness because his charisma not only intoxicates them, but also fools them into believing he is “Normal”.

He not only lives a double life; but has perfected it to the point where no one knows he is one of the immune deficient souls walking the earth.
He leaves many victims behind, but even worse is his legacy of alumni who want to be just like him.  His fury of death, destruction, and greed live far beyond his years. It will make you question family, mortality and the daily struggle to “Fit In”.

This tale embarks on the ignorance of our time, a time where awareness and education is at sub-zero. AIDS awareness today is no longer trendy. It is out of style to wear a red ribbon, protest, or say the word “condom,” much less use one. Today, discussing an individuals HIV status is virtually taboo. In the tainted world the variance between negative, positive, gay and straight have been distorted and now an entire generation is at risk, which makes Sebastian dangerous and very powerful in life, but more importantly, in death.

Sebastian not only turns himself into an Urban Legend, but a hero as well.
 
The story will unveil a cast of characters who have to live with the ramifications of Sebastian’s choices in life, or like he preferred to call it, their free will.  The cause and effect of Sebastian’s actions live far beyond his years and catching a killer will prove very difficult even for the former District Attorney of Los Angeles who can not and will not let this case go cold.
 
It will show you how men who are single and married can destroy not only their own lives, but the lives of their wives, children and unborn babies.  It will show you how not everyone is as lucky as Sebastian and will perish from the disease. How they will suffer and how the medications will not only fail, but cause more damage, scaring them for life.
 
Most importantly, it will show you how the cycle continues and how history always repeats itself with Tobey, his youngest victim and best student. How everything, absolutely everything you believed to be real becomes a fictional memoir.
This saga will provoke every feeling from your body.  It will take you from horror and disgust to envy and admiration.  It will catapult you into a world only few people ever get to see and you will see it through the eyes of a murderer and his victims.
This Fictional Memoir of a Tainted life will show you the pain behind a beautiful smile written by the only man in the world who got away with being the perfect serial murderer.  It will show you how life is a perception and reality is what you believe it to be.  
AIDS is not about promiscuity, homosexuality or vulgar individuals, it is about choices. Medications and vaccines do not guarantee you a life after infection. It does not mean the disease will not kill you, it can and it will. As fictional as this story may seem, it is undoubtedly happening in your own city, in your own backyard, perhaps it has already happened to you.
At the end of the story you will ask yourself, “Who was the real victim?”

Alzmek.com 


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